“I grew up emerged in Christian culture. I went to Church on Sunday and attended a Christian school. My understanding of Christianity was ‘be a good person and believe that there is a God’. I never really questioned this very much growing up. This changed for me during my first year of university. I got into the clubbing scene quite hard and was running away from the Church as quickly as I could. At the time I still called myself a Christian even though my lifestyle was very inconsistent with my understanding of Christianity. It felt extremely hypocritical of me to continue living the way that I was. I was at the point of discarding Christianity completely. However, I had a suspicion that there was truth in Christianity – although I did not really know what it was. I felt compelled to explore Christianity for myself before I threw it away. In my investigation I found that Christianity was not what I knew it to be. I discovered the good news that although I was fundamentally broken before God – that his son Jesus died for me so that I could be made right with God. This was not a message of salvation by good deeds or religious adherence and Church attendance. It was a pronouncement that I could never be good enough – that I needed a saviour. This was not the Christianity that I knew. I found it emotionally and intellectually compelling. The more I investigated the more convincing the evidence was that Jesus was who he said he was – the son of God and the saviour of the world. This journey took a few months. Since then I have been trusting in Christ and attempting to live with him as my Lord.
I have been a Christian for ten years now. As with any relationship there have been seasons of joy, anger, distance and closeness. I still fall so far short of who I know God wants me to be – but I rest in the truth that my relationship with God is not dependent on my goodness – but his.”